I miss seeing him at school. Seeing him stood under the big tree. Seeing him walked down the street with his friends. Seeing him passed by my class. Haha. What a memory. He, who had my attention from the start. Till now I guess. And those attention has turned to something big that no one ever expected. But I don't know what is the ending of this. Frankly saying I don't mind if he ends up with someone else or even my own friend. For me it is normal. Hearts change. And this is what I called fate.
For now I just wanna say thank you to him. I had planned to confront him, to face him, to meet him on the last day of SPM. But yeah you know we can only plan, but Allah is the one who decides things. I don't have the guts. I can only watch him walked away. Watching him go without saying anything. If fear doesn't exist, I bet he'll know everything by that time. I don't mind if he is reading this. I did not expect anything. This is just a story of me. I'm the one who posted this so I know everyone has the right to read this.
All of it started when we became 'friends' in facebook. Yeah fb really connects people. Hahaha. Between those comments, those wall posts, those jokes he made, I fell a little. I don't think he realized that. And the main thing that hypnotized me is he likes CR too. I mean he supports him, adores him. In my whole life, I haven't met a guy who likes CR as I am. Fact is they keep on insulting him. Heyy CR was once the best footballer in the world okay. You guys can't deny that. Though sekarang ni people busy with Messi, Neymar or even Nazmi Faiz, I'll stick with CR. Okay that was the first thing. And yeah obviously after knowing him, my life has been turning upside down. Sometimes I feel happy, sometimes I feel sad without a clear reason. But I know that's what made me today. I followed my friends' advises. Just go with the flow. Don't expect too much. I did it.
To make things easier, I did gave him my phone number. Haha. I gave him a good luck card as he entered a big competition. A hand made card with my number written in it too. If only he knows how many times I edited the card. Yeah I'm not a creative people. Need a lot of time to make it look good. Don't have any idea whether he still have it or not. And seriously I didn't expect that he'd text me on the same day I gave him the card. Haha. Since then, my life become better and better. Until this one fine day.
I don't want to explain about this in detail but I had the thought of to stop to contact him. This is not so suddenly. This is because of something. Haha. I don't know whether it's true or not. If it is true then it is good for both of them. If it is not then I'm really sorry. But I knew, he knows already that I had this kind of thought. So, it's all up to him. All I can do is just waiting. We don't know what's going to happen in the future. But I hope he'll be there. In my future. As a friend also enough cause there's no one like him. Someone said to me '' kalau kita berusaha macam mana pun tapi Allah tak bagi sesuatu tu terjadi, benda tu takkan jadi jugak ''. So I guess I can't do anything if it's not meant to happen.
And I'm proud to say that he's the first :')